Blurb:
Jake Tucker is broken. At twenty-two, he went in to the Marine Corps a naïve, troubled youth. Nine years and four tours later, Jake finds himself back on US soil, though his mind remains firmly planted in the sands of Afghanistan with the men he left behind.
Wounded, chewed up and spat out by war, Jake has only his dog, Nuke, PTSD, and survivor’s guilt to keep him company. He’s lived every day for nine years wondering when it will be his last, but there’s little comfort in the fact that he’s still standing when his platoon isn’t.
Ellie Mason doesn’t have time for broken. She’s too busy trying to put food on the table. And keeping up with the demands of her autistic son, Spencer, is sometimes like fighting behind enemy lines. As if navigating the minefields of single parenthood isn’t enough, Ellie finds herself drawn to the quiet Marine who’s just as lonely as she is. But she’s loved damaged men before, and it left her wounded.
Set against the picturesque backdrop of Fairhope, Alabama, Ellie and Jake find themselves running toward the sound of chaos.
Love is war.
Only the strong survive, and surrender is inevitable.
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Review:
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"I'm probably gonna break your heart
But it'll break mine if i dont get
to kiss you just once"
I've been a huge fan of Carmen Jenners work for a while now, I randomly came across her books one day and i'm so glad i did. I've loved every book she's written since. Carmen's writing is absolute brilliance, She has raw talent and i adore her ability to create such different worlds in each of her books that i so badly want to be a part of. The characters she brings to life and the fact that she gives us the chance to see through them. Beyond the rough exterior, asshole personalities and hot as shit bodies we see so much more. Carmen gives the chance for us to feel everything her characters are feeling, lets us feel as if we are there right along side them and its so damn hard to find a book that does that and keeps you hooked throughout. Everytime i see a new release from Jenner i just know that it's going to be just as amazing as the last if not better and im never wrong.
Hearing from Carmen that Toward the sound of Chaos was completely different to what shes used to writing had me all kinds of excited and yet a tiny bit scared. I had butterflies when i sat down to start reading it and was not prepared for the bucket full of emotions that i was going to drown in whilst reading it. There was numerous times whilst reading Jake and Ellie's story that i had to stop reading, put down my kindle and take a moment to reflect on everything i had read. To try and understand how on earth this author had me feeling so much from chapter to chapter. This story tore my heart out and then very slowly put it back together again.
"Nine years I fought their war. Now, every day I wake and fight my own"
Jake Tucker served as a US Marine, returning from war a completely different man. Battling demons that followed him home and living with the constant reminder of what happened on his skin and deep within his mind. Its no secret he's struggling, he knows it. So does everyone else. Jake Tucker is a hero in his own right yet he doesnt feel like one. He's returned home full of loss and guilt for the men he couldnt save. Living a life day to day he wishes he could just end.
Ellie Mason is a single mother to her Autistic son Spencer, her whole world revolving round him. She knows what if feels like to have a past that haunts you. Raising a child with Autism and SPD has got to be challenging to say the least but i love how Ellie is as a mother, doing everything she can for her little boy. Setting up home and putting his needs before her own. With noone to rely on but herself she knows a little of what its like to be lonely.
"That woman is a walking time bomb and the more I talked to her, the more I didn't care that I'd be swallowed up by the blast once it went off. And it was sure to detonate. Anything that came from this, anything we built would be blown to smithereens because if she was a time bomb, I was a nuclear weapon"
From a hesitant friendship to something so much more. Sly glances, short converstaions something between Jake and Ellie clicks. He's a man so broken he can't be touched and she's the woman that threatens to break down his walls and love him and show him he truly is a man worth so much. There is no doubt that from the beginning Ellie and Jake are meant to be, they save each other and bring each other peace. They're the only people that understand each others pain, the only ones that they dont have to pretend around. They can let their guards down and just be. The connection and relationship between them truly broke my heart at times. I love the fact that this book dragged me in with so much more than just sex, it was so much more. The silence and the chaos, the moments they fall apart and the times they slowly put each other back together. Two people finding the beauty within each other, looking past all the cracks and loving what they see. A broken man and a scared woman running toward the chaos in the hope they can bring each other peace.
"I survived war, i survived torture at the end of hands of the taliban but i wont survive Ellie Mason, not with my heart still intact"
Military romance is one of my favourites but ive never read one quite as raw as Toward the sound of Chaos. Where the author takes everything and creates a story so real, so heartbreaking from the true horrors of attending war and battling PTSD to the struggles of raising a child with Autism and the real life scenario's they have to face. I am in awe of how Carmen has portrayed it all. I was pulled in and felt as if i was right there with them. I felt everything from the gulit, the pain to the characters hearts breaking. I had moments where i cried for theses characters and my god it all felt so real. Hoping that eventually they would find the light at the end of the chaos. Its a beautiful story and one that will stay with me and is most definitly one of my all time favourite books.
Carmen Jenner is absolutely amazing with words. The passion along with everything else you feel whilst reading her books is really a reminder of why i read.
Behind the darkness and very real situations in her books im so glad as a reader to find the true beauty in her stories because whats a happy ever after without a little torture right? ;)
5* just isnt enough.
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